I'll just be honest with all you internet folks. I messed up. I managed to never drink or party, i went to every class, did my homework and still got less than a 2.0 GPA for two semesters. That means I'm no longer enrolled at CU Boulder. As sad as I am, I'm more angry. I'm mad that I let myself get to this point. I had an amazing opportunity and I wasted it. I wasted a year, around $35,000 and I have nothing to show for it.
My parents were furious, obviously. So I have to make a new plan and make-up for what I did. Next year I'll be going to a community college and living at home. So now I get to find someone to sub-lease the apartment in Boulder that I already paid for, and pray that I can find someone. Three classes I took I will not transfer because I got low grades, and my hope of graduating in three years is slowly going away.
I have to start over, new people, new school, new classes, and I have a lot of catching up to do. I'll have to get a different job close to home and I won't be able to have the freedom I did in Boulder. This is all around a crap situation. However, I'm trying to see the positive side. Being at home and going to a cheaper college will save me a ton of money down the road. I'll be able to buy a car to go to school and money won't be an issue because tuition is so much cheaper. On top of this, the college I'll be going to has a Cross country team that I plan to try out for. I miss running and competing so much, and I think this might be good for me. I'll be home so there will be less distraction and I can help my parents with picking up my sisters, cleaning and making dinner.
I'm sharing this story for you all because I want any college freshman to know that you could have been a great student in high school, and you might not be into the party scene, but none of it matters if you don't stay grounded and remember all the work you need to do in order to pass.
I hope that I can find a way to make this work, and somehow show my parents how truly sorry I am for wasting their time and money. I need to grow up, and take responsibility and that should've happened before this summer.
What a wonderful attitude you have... It's been some time since I was a first-year student and as someone who works at a university now I tell my students all the time that I hated school all the way through a master's degree. It was nothing but God that I went back for a doctorate, so if I can do it, so can you if that is your desire. And community college is great! I am hoping to get a job back at one very soon (I started my higher ed career at a community college). All the best to you! Oh, and thanks for the follow also :)
ReplyDeleteI think it's awesome that you acknowledge and admit your mistakes. That's not very easy for many people to do. I hope you have a lot of good grades and success at your new school!
ReplyDeleteFirst off, give yourself a pat on the back for acknowledging what happened and choosing not to place the blame on anyone else. This is Life and unfortunately things like this happen. Every college student has had a "bad" semester. All you can do is dust yourself off and when you're feeling up to the challenge, arise and do your best! I'm a community college student in California on the cusps of graduating and transferring to a 4-year university and I've had my grad & transfer delayed because of not passing a math class and of the availability of classes....It is frustrating. But there's a mantra I lean on when times are rough.. "This TOO Shall Pass."
ReplyDeleteDivine Blk Pearl is so right. You are not alone. Sometimes we need to royally screw up in order to get where we need to be. I know, I know. That's super cheesy. But I teach at community college, and semester after semester, I get to watch students come in - confused and a little broken - and then leave - stronger than they ever were. You can do it.
ReplyDeleteThanks for this, I'm glad I'm not the only one who struggled, but I think it taught me that I can't goof off, I need to grow up and take responsibility for what happened
ReplyDeleteYou are strong and everyone makes mistakes...but everyone as well deserves a second chance. Keep your head up and I look forward to reading more of your posts! I really like your blog :)
ReplyDeleteAwe, thank you, I really appreciate that
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